hopefully this'll help

At the proddings of piman, tiernsshadow, etc., I have majorly trimmed my friends' list. There are a number of communities that I trimmed, and then added back, but it's still a major improvement.

And note that this entry is friends-only. If you can read it, you're still friended.

[EDIT: This entry was made public, and many people were re-added. Please read this.]

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I fucked up. Big time.
To everyone with the mercy to read this... I'm sorry. I may try to explain my actions in another post, but excuses don't belong here. All that belongs here is an enormous apology.

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I should have mentioned this in my last post, but I'm not going to re-add anyone who unfriended me until I have their permission (either via comment, e-mail, aim, etc. or being re-friended).

last post of the day

Okay, here's what happened.
A number of people have been pointing out how the number of people, feeds, and communities I have on my friends' list is insane. I decided that maybe they were right, and that I should trim my friends' list.
Why did I remove "my" Tribers? Because you're not my Triber's anymore. Or rather, I'm not one of your Tribers anymore. Ever since I resigned, I've felt like I've been... I don't know.I guess I felt that it was improper for me to remain friends with you guys. I thought that de-friending you would be a good way to forget about you guys and move on.
Maybe I do need to move on, but Sal helped me to realize that what's improper is to assume that because I don't pretend I'm Jack anymore you guys aren't important to me, or that I'm not important to you.

I may eventually un-friend some of you, but never out of some feeling of obligation. And if/when I do, I will be open about it.

i guess i lied again, but this is important

So, I'm feeling all whacky right now. Recent drama has set my head spinning in all sorts of different directions, and few of them are pleasant. The most prominent thought is that I wish I could make it so only people who read my LJ have me friended. I assume that because someone has me friended, that they at least enjoy my company. That they don't fine me an annoying nuisance and only friend me because I friended them, and then filter me from their friends' list. I'm not saying that I'm mad at them or hold a grudge against them for doing so - I wouldn't even know who to hold a grudge against! I just want to know who is comfortable with me approaching them in real life, or even on AIM. The only solution I can think of is to make a post with the header asking for people not to skip it, and asking everyone who really isn't interested in me or my life to tell me and unfriend me. But that doesn't help with people who have me filtered out - the one's who are the least interested.
Somewhat related: just how inappropriate are my LJ habits. My RL friends often joke about how half of the entries on their friends' lists are memes I posted, but are there people who are honestly peeved at me for this. Just how many people have me filtered because of my "spamming" and miss the few posts I make from my heart? And if this is a serious problem... How can I train myself otherwise?
There are so many things that I want to blog about. Things that are important to me; things that are weighing me down. But these are the things I'm least likely to post about because I'm too distracted by them to sit down and write. Sometimes I think that getting rid of my client would help, but then I wonder if that would make me even less likely to have the energy to post about important things.

If you read this post and you're feeling up to it, could you please leave at least a brief comment on what you think of me and of my journal?

?ooB

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In Japan, a major category of product are "hard minty eye drops," which you put in your eyes to both refresh yourself and wake yourself up, as well as wetting the eyes. Note: these are not recommended for use with soft contact lenses, because they can cause your eyes to dry out.
That's like a medication for high blood pressure that has a side-effect of raising the blood pressure. ><;

There's something weird about someone friending all your friends and not friending you. But I'll be the first to admit that that's better than the alternative. :)

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