i guess i lied again, but this is important

[tsukikage]

So, I'm feeling all whacky right now. Recent drama has set my head spinning in all sorts of different directions, and few of them are pleasant. The most prominent thought is that I wish I could make it so only people who read my LJ have me friended. I assume that because someone has me friended, that they at least enjoy my company. That they don't fine me an annoying nuisance and only friend me because I friended them, and then filter me from their friends' list. I'm not saying that I'm mad at them or hold a grudge against them for doing so - I wouldn't even know who to hold a grudge against! I just want to know who is comfortable with me approaching them in real life, or even on AIM. The only solution I can think of is to make a post with the header asking for people not to skip it, and asking everyone who really isn't interested in me or my life to tell me and unfriend me. But that doesn't help with people who have me filtered out - the one's who are the least interested.
Somewhat related: just how inappropriate are my LJ habits. My RL friends often joke about how half of the entries on their friends' lists are memes I posted, but are there people who are honestly peeved at me for this. Just how many people have me filtered because of my "spamming" and miss the few posts I make from my heart? And if this is a serious problem... How can I train myself otherwise?
There are so many things that I want to blog about. Things that are important to me; things that are weighing me down. But these are the things I'm least likely to post about because I'm too distracted by them to sit down and write. Sometimes I think that getting rid of my client would help, but then I wonder if that would make me even less likely to have the energy to post about important things.

If you read this post and you're feeling up to it, could you please leave at least a brief comment on what you think of me and of my journal?

Comments

[jadeejf.livejournal.com]

Well, I enjoy your journal *and* the memes. Plus I've talked to you on AIM, so it's all good. Besides, you usually cut your quizzes anyway, not that I care, since I certainly can scroll anyway.

[ferd-g-burfel.livejournal.com]

Uncut quizzes (when you forget the cut) are kinda irritating, but I like reading your journal overall. I think it's interesting. I know you read mine, but mostly 'cause you comment on it.

[skiing-mouse.livejournal.com]

I don't have you on a filter, and I usually read your stuff. It just that sometimes there is a lot of little things that could be condensed into one...

[o3nsmash.livejournal.com]

This is your journal and you are allowed to do whatever you want with it. If you really concerned about the memes problem, you could try making more of an effort to use the lj-cut tag or, an extreme, make another journal for less serious posts. I definitely enjoy reading your posts where you actually have written your thoughts down since we don't talk much. I feel you have interesting things to say, but sometimes the memes do clog your journal.

- Corey

[zuisa.livejournal.com]

Like another commentor said - this is YOUR journal. You can't cater to what other people want to read. I know it's hard, because I have trouble with it, but if people don't like what you have to say in your own personal journal, that is NOT your problem.

That said, I like your journal! You are my fellow Tribe G33K and Linguist-type! I don't know you personally or anything (although some weekend I will have to come to Minneapolis to say hi :-)

[imperialmarshal.livejournal.com]

You're on friends/vapid.

Do you care? It's not like you need my acceptance.

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

No, I don't need your acceptance, but I still like to have an idea of what individuals think of me so I can avoid pissing them off, etc.

[darkluminaire.livejournal.com]

I think you're an awesome, funny chick. I enjoy reading everything you put down, meme's and all. If you're that concerned about what other people are saying about your blogging habits, remove them from your friends list, and ask them to do the same. This is your LJ, and it's yours to do with as you please. 'Nuff said :-D

[angrykeyboarder.livejournal.com]

I think you're getting all stressed out over absolutely nothing.

I like you, I like your blog. I enjoy reading it. You, like most anyone I read, aren't always going to fascinate me and perhaps I may breeze over a post or two from time to time. But more often than not, you get my full attention.

You didn't find me, I found you (by accident - although I don't remember the circumstances anymore).

I think you're cool and I'm sure I'm not alone. So please, find something else to worry about ok? :-)

{{{HUGZ}}}}

[belindabird.livejournal.com]

I think your blog is fine. My blogging habits are different - I like to put multiple thoughts in one post, thus making them frightfully long sometimes (I know for a fact that there are a few people who won't read my entries sometimes just because they get to be really long). You on the other hand, tend to keep your entries short and to a single subject, which is the opposite from me but I don't find it annoying.

I also don't mind memes since I usually end up doing them myself too :) I don't even care too much if they're not cut, since I know right away what they are.

I don't think you have anything to worry about. I read every one of your posts even if I don't comment on all of them. I genuinely think that when people express themselves it's important, whether they're happy or sad or whatever. So don't worry about it :)

[tamitha]

I think you're very nice and are a wonderful person. I'm glad to have become friends with you. Your posts help me get to know you better, to which I'm grateful for since it's one of the only forms of getting to know you, since we live in different places. Personally, I think you rock. ^__^

[anchan218.livejournal.com]

You put your memes behind LJ cuts so I really don't mind all the memes. :) I am not a huge fan and generally skip all the memes (not just yours - everyone's) but make sure to read all your important stuff.

As others have already said, it's your journal so do what you want with it. You're probably making too big a deal about this. ^_^

[a-cracked-pot.livejournal.com]

hedwig and I both love you and miss your perfume laden embraces of doom. We also read your LJ and even venture to take some of your quizes though we cheat and never put them up. Please feel better, I was putting all my good vibes into the midget plant I recieved from the greenhouse, but now I'll send some beaming your way. And don't forget, since your missed your chance to bomb Mount Holyoke, come and visit if you're ever around.

Michi

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

*hugs you and Hedwig*
I'm receiving your good vibes. They're telling me to get Oreos and smear the cream on my face.
*hugs you alone*

I miss you.

[disheveledhair.livejournal.com]

I think you misinterpreted what I said. When I said, "and made a filter" I meant with just you on it. I made a link to the filter, made it public, and added it into my style, so at the end of the day when I'd caught up with all of my other friends, I'd go and see what you'd gotten up to.

I agree with everyone, it's your journal and you should do what you want with it. I think there are some things you post within minutes of each other, that you could probably condense into one post, but it's not my call, it's yours. Don't let someone dictate how you post in your journal, I won't let someone tell me not to talk about others, and you shouldn't let anyone make you feel bad about posting in yours. Ever.

I did like reading your posts, the ones about your life, job, friends, etc etc, I did enjoy knowing about you and your life, your feelings, how you were doing, I still am interested and when I'm not busy trying to desperatly catch up, I'll put you back into my journal (cause I still think I need a Just Jack filter =0P). I don't mind having to filter you into an alone place...it helps me keep up with you better imo. The British Guy is bad about massive posts too, and I tend to skim his stuff, as horrible as that is, but your stuff I don't really skim unless it's links out and such. I have learned a lot from you, and for that I am grateful. <3

Message from dad

[jamestdr.livejournal.com]

I probably don't know enough about how Live Journal works to understand your concerns. For instance, I don't know what a meme is--can you tell me?

Anyway, you're wonderful, and I'm glad I can read your journal and find out some things that are happening in your life that you have a hard time telling me face to face. I love you, and I wish you weren't having such a hard time. It will get better. Hang in there.

love,

dad

Re: Message from dad

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

Re: Message from dad

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

A meme is basically something that's passed around among LiveJournal members, such as the one posted here. It doesn't have to be in that format, as long as it's a copy-cat type thing. Yeah... I make a lot of sense at 2:30 in the morning, don't I.
Just so you know, I uploaded your avatar from the Star Tribune forums to your LiveJournal account - makes it easier for me to find your posts among others'.
*pets picture of Becca-zen*