やっと言っちゃった

[tsukikage]

Nastassja
ittoku kedo... hontou ni tomodachi de itsuzukeru ka dou ka wakaranai tokoro da... mou sukoshi ganbaritai to omou kedo. mochiron amari kangaenaide hoshii
[i'll let you know.... i'm at the point where I don't know if we can continue being friends or not... but I want to try a bit longer. of course I don't want you to think about it too much]

Patrick
Oooh
Why? :/
I know I made a hash of this conversation, but has being friends been hard on you..?
:/

Nastassja
i could say more, and will if you want me to, but i'm still not at the same place you are
and sometimes it's hard that you don't seem to realize that, but i've also tried to hide it as best i can for both your sake and the sake of our friendship

Patrick
[is reading]

Nastassja
and no, it's not this conversation - it's just been on my mind a lot, and i guess this conversation sort of triggered my emotions

Patrick
nods

Nastassja
icchatte gomen ne ^_^
[i'm sorry for going ahead and saying it ^_^]

Patrick
don't apologise for sayin' it
I'm just not sure what to say back

Nastassja
don't say anything ^_^
i just needed you to know
that's really all

Patrick
sighs, laughs a bit
OK

[EDIT: Now that it's been about a half hour since that went down, I'm feeling a lot calmer and better about things, and I think I made the right decision.

関係ないけど、物理諦めちゃおうと思う。期末試験は明日の夜だし、ラボはまだ書いていないし、全然無理のようだ。]