Becca's final days

[tsukikage]

Dad says it's time for Becca. He wants to do it this weekend, so he won't miss work, but when I told him I was going to call Patrick to cancel our camping trip, he said to wait. Who knows...
I really want to go downstairs right now to spend some time with her (mainly recording), but I think I'm going to wait until tomorrow. Partly, it seems useless, not to mention... I can't remember the word. But it disgusts me that not only am I trying to spend a lot more time with her now that I know she won't be around much longer (that I didn't spend a lot more time with her when she was "just a pet"), but also that even now that know that I know it's a matter of days before I'll never get to spend time with her again, I'm still waiting to spend time with her until "after I finish this episode of Sailor Moon". If I were a decent human being, I would be spending every minute with her that I possibly could, leaving her only when I had to go to work or do chores or eat.
So tomorrow I'm gonna take care of a couple of neccesary errands, and then basically spend the day with Becca, when no one's around to make me feel like they're realizing my hypocrisy.

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[tiernsshadow.livejournal.com]

We did the same thing with my old dog Jacqui. Somewhere in the depths of the photo boxes in the basement there are several film rolls' worth of pictures of her from the two weeks before her death, preceded by several years of not many pictures at all.