Viva Forever

[tsukikage]

It's so weird how my fear of death is totally changing. It's no longer a fear of oblivion so much as a great sadness at the thought of forgetting everything. On top of that, it's not spending time with my friends and loved ones that makes me sad at the thought of dying, but watching an amazing PGSM fan vid or studying for school, or just looking at the moon. Will the beauty of the moon be forever erased from my mind?
And if there is a heaven, I can only pray that my love for foreign languages won't become meaningless from the lack of language barriers...

Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live Forever, for the moment
Ever searching for the one

Comments

[trozman.livejournal.com]

I've always thought the two as being like.. related. *Is awfully phobic-ally afraid of death =(* Like, I imagine the oblivion of the self, and of the consciousness, of thoughts and memories. *shiver-twitch*

Anyways, oh yeah, curried sausage! Tastes like... sweet spicy ketchup (it's curry mixed with ketchup) sausage :P But it's pretty good, but not a strong curry flavour~

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

I guess before I just cared that when I died I would be able to see the black around me and be like "hey, it's black". I was incredibly freaked out at having no consciousness whatsoever. With this new feeling, that wouldn't be enough for me, but luckily rather than making me even more freaked out, it's distracted my fear with my sorrow. (The fear gives me panic attacks.)

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

Sounds yummy. :)

[iamrobertsworry.livejournal.com]

I always thought it would suck to not know how the human race does in the future? Like I'll never get to read the ending of the book.

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

That's had me a couple of times - wanting to know just what kind of advances we'll make in the future. Imagine poor Newton, never knowing that we put foot on the moon.

[belindabird.livejournal.com]

I don't have a fear of death anymore, but I do have bouts of sadness when I wonder about rebirth and how I would miss the people that I've met/loved in this life, but I guess if I had no recollection it wouldn't matter. I guess not one of us will ever really know.

I went through a phase where I tried to get cool with the fact that when we die it's just a cease of existence and nothing happens (as in, the consciousness doesn't survive), but I could never quite make myself believe it. And I don't know if my current belief in rebirth comes from some inflated sense of importance in the universe or what, but I don't feel so hopeless now. Even if I'm wrong I guess I'll never realize it so it doesn't really matter ;) I just concentrating on learning the lessons life throws out for me to learn, because that's kind of what I believe our ultimate purpose might be. Enlightenment might come from knowing and understanding all positions and experiences.

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

I think I've told you this before, but rebirth would definitely be my ideal "afterlife" - you're not dead forever, you're not alive forever. The one catch my mind keeps getting caught on is what will happen to this cycle when the Earth dies, or when the universe collapses... Perhaps at that point we would stop being reborn and truly die. *mind wanders*
So, how scared were you of death?

[belindabird.livejournal.com]

Scared to the point of being preoccupied with it. This actually sort of arose from being exposed to the Christian ideas about death/afterlife and then finding myself unable to believe Christianity -_- That can be a bad feeling, constantly questioning whether giving lip-service to something in which you don't actually believe would be enough for God to let you into heaven. And it's pervasive, too. Even now sometimes I have to keep reminding myself that I don't believe in the Christian idea of "hell" :/

As for the end of the universe subject, there's a part of me that doesn't believe that our universe, even in its almost infinite vastness, could be the only existence. I read an article once written by some Pagan author who proposed that, once our spirit has learned all its lessons, it is able to exist outside of our concept of existence (in more literal terms, it might transcend to someplace outside our physical universe). That's a lot to try to wrap my head around, but as out there as it sounded to me at the time, I actually like it as a theory. I don't know, but it makes me hopeful that we can go beyond our (comparatively) ignorant human minds and become something that transcends even the physical laws of the universe or the universe itself.

[darkluminaire.livejournal.com]

You're worrying about things that are likely not to happen for millenia. What do I think about it? Well, I'm scared of death just like your average person, but having been there already (I was clinically dead for 5 minutes when I was 15) I think that whatever happens to my soul, to my consciousness.....I'm all for.

We all retain a little something from life to life (that is, if you believe in reincarnation) and it's just up to each of us to discover these things, and try to live as full a life as we can. I've worked my butt off to become the person I am now, and I imagine in my previous life, I did so as well, to get here (being human).

The work that I decided to put into my life will not be in vain, because I know that after I die, I'll have left behind something greater than death, something more important than death. This isn't about beating death, it's all about leaving my mark on a place that I'm gonna come back to, when the karma comes back around

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

it's all about leaving my mark on a place that I'm gonna come back to
I like that. ^_^

[ellie-desu.livejournal.com]

Hi! I got the recc from Beth to friend you, nice to see another 'not friends only' journal!

[tsukikage85.livejournal.com]

I plan to be NFO until I have no choice. ;)
*friends you*

[valgaav-xellos.livejournal.com]

omg i remember that spice girls song!!! XD it was my favorite ^-^