anxious ramblings
Apr. 16th, 2004 02:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tsukikageI'm thinking the concerta's a bad idea, or at least when I'm not in class. I dunno. I feel ancily disconnected right now, as if got an hour of sleep last night, but I got plenty. Or as if my blood sugar's off. But I've been eating quite well today and yesterday, I thought.
Maybe it's from going without for so long, and I need to go back to one a day for a while...
Pretty pissed at Ann. She made me get up at nine to have breakfast, insisting that I could go back to bed after eating but that not eating breakfast right away was not taking care of myself. When I refused to get up after she pulled away my blanket and pillow and prevented her from tickling my feet, she physically pulled me out of bed screaming at me to go downstairs and eat. You'd think I had vandalized something of hers, or something... I went downstairs and locked myself in the bathroom, and took a shower, brushed my teeth, etc. Eventually was forced to move on.
Still... The one time I feel I DESERVE an apology (I hate being apologized to when I feel I haven't been wronged) she states that she's not sorry. Figures.
Told Patrick about my feelings about Eleanor; also asked him permission about something, which I was granted. He's gonna pick me up after class today.
I wish Ann would stop coming upstairs and/or talking to me every ten minutes. I enjoy family, and I've given up on showing her how angry I am, but I hate this here and gone and here and gone and here and gone bullshit. Especially when the here lasts way longer than it would for any normal person. Ann's a great person, and I love her, but my room is a personal bubble when it comes to parents - even if I'm just doing homework, PLEASE go away.
I need to learn to do my own laudry... That may be the only way to get her to not come up here.
Bah... Gotta go to class soon. With Ann. ^_^; I hope she doesn't try to communicate with me - talking is fine, but communicating's incredibly frustrating...
I feel so bratty right now. ><;
Maybe it's from going without for so long, and I need to go back to one a day for a while...
Pretty pissed at Ann. She made me get up at nine to have breakfast, insisting that I could go back to bed after eating but that not eating breakfast right away was not taking care of myself. When I refused to get up after she pulled away my blanket and pillow and prevented her from tickling my feet, she physically pulled me out of bed screaming at me to go downstairs and eat. You'd think I had vandalized something of hers, or something... I went downstairs and locked myself in the bathroom, and took a shower, brushed my teeth, etc. Eventually was forced to move on.
Still... The one time I feel I DESERVE an apology (I hate being apologized to when I feel I haven't been wronged) she states that she's not sorry. Figures.
Told Patrick about my feelings about Eleanor; also asked him permission about something, which I was granted. He's gonna pick me up after class today.
I wish Ann would stop coming upstairs and/or talking to me every ten minutes. I enjoy family, and I've given up on showing her how angry I am, but I hate this here and gone and here and gone and here and gone bullshit. Especially when the here lasts way longer than it would for any normal person. Ann's a great person, and I love her, but my room is a personal bubble when it comes to parents - even if I'm just doing homework, PLEASE go away.
I need to learn to do my own laudry... That may be the only way to get her to not come up here.
Bah... Gotta go to class soon. With Ann. ^_^; I hope she doesn't try to communicate with me - talking is fine, but communicating's incredibly frustrating...
I feel so bratty right now. ><;
