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tsukikageOK, despite having a great day, my day sucked. For one, I was really excited about what I was going to get Patrick for his birthday, and in the process of checking if he had it already, but he got really excited and said he would ask for it for his birthday (shattering the "I remember what you told me last Christmas" factor) and, on top of that, I pretty much gave it away. Now a part of me doesn't want to give him anything. I mean, he would have been so ECSTATIC, and now it'll just be like "Oh, cool." I'm SO smooth sometimes.
In other news, who created jealousy, anyway? I KNOW it's irrational jealousy, but since when are any feelings rational? I mean, there should be a commandment that "Though shall not covet the entirety of your significant other's devotion." I think if we ever decide to get married, I'm going to tell him that he has to go visit her and go on a date with her. I mean... From what I gathered, I feel that if they lived in close proximity, THEY would be the ones in love. Not only do I want him to be as happy as he can be, but I don't want him to discover that he'd be happier with someone else when it's too late.
Am I making any sense?
Anyways, I really try to be mature about it - jealousy is for the petty. (Hah! I got a fortune cookie the other day that said I am never spiteful (?), something else, or petty. Shows you what fortune cookies know!) I kinda wish Pat could see through me better so he could comfort me, but I'm trying my best not to let him know. I don't want his wonderful relationship with this girl to change...
End of spoiled rant.
In other news, who created jealousy, anyway? I KNOW it's irrational jealousy, but since when are any feelings rational? I mean, there should be a commandment that "Though shall not covet the entirety of your significant other's devotion." I think if we ever decide to get married, I'm going to tell him that he has to go visit her and go on a date with her. I mean... From what I gathered, I feel that if they lived in close proximity, THEY would be the ones in love. Not only do I want him to be as happy as he can be, but I don't want him to discover that he'd be happier with someone else when it's too late.
Am I making any sense?
Anyways, I really try to be mature about it - jealousy is for the petty. (Hah! I got a fortune cookie the other day that said I am never spiteful (?), something else, or petty. Shows you what fortune cookies know!) I kinda wish Pat could see through me better so he could comfort me, but I'm trying my best not to let him know. I don't want his wonderful relationship with this girl to change...
End of spoiled rant.