[DL] confusion...
Jun. 17th, 2003 01:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tsukikageWell, Father's Day went well. The parents came home (from that exotic destination of Woodbury!) earlier than expected, so we didn't have dad's present done. Alana and I quickly made Dad a card telling him that we were going to make dinner for him. Kinda lame, but he seemed to like it. Maybe I'll make my curry chicken...
Anyways, we went to Popeye's for lunch (which my dad says he likes even better than "fine food"). This is where I told Dad the truth about the paper... I really wanted to wait until after Father's Day, but some slip-ups forced me to tell the truth. Anyways, lunch still went well. (The best part was listening to Alana tell the parents not to talk about sex on the way home! ^_^)
Later went to my Uncle Geoff's house for dinner. He made cornish game hen, asparagus, curry rice, and DELICIOUS chocolate cake. It was very laid back. Geoff and I went outside to walk Bear (their dog), and Geoff was telling me not to stress out about school. I know... ^_^
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Yesterday I had my first session of driver's ed. Why do we have to take this? I can read the stupid text OUTSIDE of school, you guys. Why can't we just study it on our own, come in to a classroom four 5 hours for safety lecturing, and take the test? It's such a waste of time...
(By the way, in case you're wondering why I'm writing this during driver's ed, I thought I would wake up without an alarm. I was wrong. ^^;)
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Ok, X told me something that happened back in February, and I forgave X. X had a good reason for not telling me earlier (so it wouldn't affect my school work), told me within a week of the end of school, it was only once, and X seemed contrite.
But why wasn't I more distressed about it than I was? I don't think it's really sunk in, yet. I think I need to spend some time thinking today. I still forgive X, and I'll forget. But I need to figure out how I really feel. I really don't want this to happen again.
I think the biggest problem is that X has no intention of ever doing it again, but I still need to tell X how I feel. I'm not really hurt, and I feel that I can still trust X (these actually worry me...), but... I guess I'll just have to say that if it happens again, I'll have to end our friendship.
I don't know. I'm confused...
Anyways, we went to Popeye's for lunch (which my dad says he likes even better than "fine food"). This is where I told Dad the truth about the paper... I really wanted to wait until after Father's Day, but some slip-ups forced me to tell the truth. Anyways, lunch still went well. (The best part was listening to Alana tell the parents not to talk about sex on the way home! ^_^)
Later went to my Uncle Geoff's house for dinner. He made cornish game hen, asparagus, curry rice, and DELICIOUS chocolate cake. It was very laid back. Geoff and I went outside to walk Bear (their dog), and Geoff was telling me not to stress out about school. I know... ^_^
Yesterday I had my first session of driver's ed. Why do we have to take this? I can read the stupid text OUTSIDE of school, you guys. Why can't we just study it on our own, come in to a classroom four 5 hours for safety lecturing, and take the test? It's such a waste of time...
(By the way, in case you're wondering why I'm writing this during driver's ed, I thought I would wake up without an alarm. I was wrong. ^^;)
Ok, X told me something that happened back in February, and I forgave X. X had a good reason for not telling me earlier (so it wouldn't affect my school work), told me within a week of the end of school, it was only once, and X seemed contrite.
But why wasn't I more distressed about it than I was? I don't think it's really sunk in, yet. I think I need to spend some time thinking today. I still forgive X, and I'll forget. But I need to figure out how I really feel. I really don't want this to happen again.
I think the biggest problem is that X has no intention of ever doing it again, but I still need to tell X how I feel. I'm not really hurt, and I feel that I can still trust X (these actually worry me...), but... I guess I'll just have to say that if it happens again, I'll have to end our friendship.
I don't know. I'm confused...