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tsukikageIf I had a choice between being over Mike IMMEDIATELY, or going back to Tuesday morning and changing my decisions entirely to have had that conversation in a more controlled manner this weekend... I'd probably choose the latter. I really hope after the storm passes and I'm in a new place that I don't still end up regretting what happened that afternoon. I just can't shake the feeling that I needlessly threw away something good, even if logic tells me that it was for the best. I really should take a hint from Mike's apparently indifferent attitude towards the break-up. だって、あいつは一度も｢大好き｣と言わなかったし、私の前で泣くこともしなかった。私はただ愛しい友達のような者であった。
「もしも願い一つだけ叶うなら
君の側で眠らせて どんな場所でもいいよ」
God, you guys must be so sick of reading about this. I mean, in all truth it's just the same cliches on a broken record. Seriously, if one person says they want me to create a filter, I totally will. I just feel like this is a good place for me to vent and get some occasional reality checks from my friends who are crazy enough to put up with me.
I think as soon as I can come to the conclusion that I want to be over him, that I'm truly okay with us being over, it'll be a fast process from there. Or maybe truly wanting to be over someone and being over them are the same thing?
I think Sai's calling me on my bullshit.
ETA: 特にこの気持ちを彼に伝えたいけど、それは絶対しちゃいけないことだとよく分かる。「*抱く*」って書きたいけど、それも禁止．．．
ETA2: For better or worse, at least he's being supportive of my need to more-or-less cut off contact with him. I think Patrick sort of forced his dumper-heiki-ness on me, discouraging me from putting that distance between us for so long that he became sick of my inability to get over him. Although I really shouldn't be "putting words in his mouth".
「もしも願い一つだけ叶うなら
君の側で眠らせて どんな場所でもいいよ」
God, you guys must be so sick of reading about this. I mean, in all truth it's just the same cliches on a broken record. Seriously, if one person says they want me to create a filter, I totally will. I just feel like this is a good place for me to vent and get some occasional reality checks from my friends who are crazy enough to put up with me.
I think as soon as I can come to the conclusion that I want to be over him, that I'm truly okay with us being over, it'll be a fast process from there. Or maybe truly wanting to be over someone and being over them are the same thing?
I think Sai's calling me on my bullshit.
ETA: 特にこの気持ちを彼に伝えたいけど、それは絶対しちゃいけないことだとよく分かる。「*抱く*」って書きたいけど、それも禁止．．．
ETA2: For better or worse, at least he's being supportive of my need to more-or-less cut off contact with him. I think Patrick sort of forced his dumper-heiki-ness on me, discouraging me from putting that distance between us for so long that he became sick of my inability to get over him. Although I really shouldn't be "putting words in his mouth".
