getting used to being alone again on weekends

[tsukikage]

You know, I was originally going to go over to Mike's around 1:30 today and get there before he got home from class to suprise him, and then stay until Monday morning because I didn't have to work at Walgreens this weekend. At the moment I'm doing fine with regards to him, but it's... really, really weird to not be going over to his place tonight. I keep feeling like I should be getting ready, and getting disappointed that I'm not going as if I was being helld up by obligations at home. I sorta wish this had happened after this weekend so I could've had those 4 days with him... Somehow I'm in denial too and thinking maybe I can still go over this weekend, as a "one last weekend", but I know I can't have that. Or he might let me, but that doesn't mean it would be a good idea.

On the plus side, I haven't cried at all this morning (yet).

By the way, I'm planning to make a filter for all my getting-over-Mike-related stuff - drop a note if you want in.