stream of consciousness
Mar. 9th, 2004 08:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tsukikageBlabbity blah blah.
I opened this window eight minutes ago and have just now begun to type. Listening to Graduations (friends forever) by Vitamin C. Icky feeling... Not that it matters. I've managed to leave without saying goodbye. Is that what I want? I still have a choice: I can go to graduation. But maybe that won't even be a goodbye. I'm feeling like there's no-one to say goodbye to. At times I feel like I had acquaintances who I spent a lot of energy with, but that I didn't have anyone who would be willing to go that extra mile for me. And I don't mean that I wanted them to, but I wanted someone who cared for me that much. I wanted a true friend.
That's what Valentine's Day should be. A time to let your friends know how much you love and care for them. Friendship is so easily taken for granted, in a way that (romantic) love never is. You don't usually have a traumatic break-up with friends; you just drift apart. There's no closure.
Anyways... Moving on to other unhappy topics... The state meet was yesterday. I wasn't there. Patrick bought me a state t-shirt. Oh, I'm glad you are so considerate of my feelings. ><; But I won't mention it to him - he had the best of intentions.
And now it's 9:16... But at least I'm back.
My kanji cards arrived yesterday. They make me happy. ^_^ I spent some time organizing them into the book one chapters. It was pretty easy, but I had to find search for some of the level 3 kanji, and there is one kanji that must be level 1 or 2 that I'll have to write myself. I doubt it's not part of the Jooyoo...
(By the way, the Jooyoo kanji are the kanji you are responsible for knowing upon graduation from junior high. In terms of the Japanese Language Proficiency Exam (JLPT), a test for learners of Japanese as a second language, these kanji are divided according to what is required for each of the levels of JLPT testing. These levels are from 1-4, with level 1 being the most comprehensive and requiring the most years of study.)
No one's buying... It sucks. ^_^;
Mid-terms this week. w007. I am SO not ready. *stares at imaginary carving knife to my side*
I got a hold of Laura yesterday. She promised she's call Wednesday. She'd better...
I can't wait for my road trip. I just hope my ticket home arrives before I leave. ><; I don't understand why I couldn't do will-call...
I'm sure I'll write more later.
I opened this window eight minutes ago and have just now begun to type. Listening to Graduations (friends forever) by Vitamin C. Icky feeling... Not that it matters. I've managed to leave without saying goodbye. Is that what I want? I still have a choice: I can go to graduation. But maybe that won't even be a goodbye. I'm feeling like there's no-one to say goodbye to. At times I feel like I had acquaintances who I spent a lot of energy with, but that I didn't have anyone who would be willing to go that extra mile for me. And I don't mean that I wanted them to, but I wanted someone who cared for me that much. I wanted a true friend.
That's what Valentine's Day should be. A time to let your friends know how much you love and care for them. Friendship is so easily taken for granted, in a way that (romantic) love never is. You don't usually have a traumatic break-up with friends; you just drift apart. There's no closure.
Anyways... Moving on to other unhappy topics... The state meet was yesterday. I wasn't there. Patrick bought me a state t-shirt. Oh, I'm glad you are so considerate of my feelings. ><; But I won't mention it to him - he had the best of intentions.
And now it's 9:16... But at least I'm back.
My kanji cards arrived yesterday. They make me happy. ^_^ I spent some time organizing them into the book one chapters. It was pretty easy, but I had to find search for some of the level 3 kanji, and there is one kanji that must be level 1 or 2 that I'll have to write myself. I doubt it's not part of the Jooyoo...
(By the way, the Jooyoo kanji are the kanji you are responsible for knowing upon graduation from junior high. In terms of the Japanese Language Proficiency Exam (JLPT), a test for learners of Japanese as a second language, these kanji are divided according to what is required for each of the levels of JLPT testing. These levels are from 1-4, with level 1 being the most comprehensive and requiring the most years of study.)
No one's buying... It sucks. ^_^;
Mid-terms this week. w007. I am SO not ready. *stares at imaginary carving knife to my side*
I got a hold of Laura yesterday. She promised she's call Wednesday. She'd better...
I can't wait for my road trip. I just hope my ticket home arrives before I leave. ><; I don't understand why I couldn't do will-call...
I'm sure I'll write more later.
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Date: 2004-03-09 12:52 pm (UTC)Correction: ...unless you're me, in fifth through twelfth grade. -_-;
ouch
Date: 2004-03-09 03:47 pm (UTC)So, as someone who has "broken up" with friends, does it provide more closure or more pain? If you had to make a choice, which do you prefer?
Re: ouch
Date: 2004-03-09 10:12 pm (UTC)