成長すること

[tsukikage]

I used to always run away from things... I wonder whether learning that I can't run away was really a matter of becoming more mature, or simply a matter of reality forcing me to bow to it? Perhaps the two aren't mutually exclusive. I still, however, feel that desire quite strongly, and wonder if it's normal, or if I really am unusually anxious about the slightest breeze of confrontation. But in the end, I have to admit that I still run away when I feel that I can get away with it.
Heh, I'll always remember Patrick as being the one who caused me to learn to not just stare in embarassed horror when I spill something. It's nice to have some little things that make that relationship not one that was in vain.

[EDIT: No, when I really think about it... I have gotten a little better, but being honest with myself, not by much.]

Comments

[eurohybrid62.livejournal.com]

It's pretty normal to want to take the easy way out of a bad situation, IMO- you feel stress, you feel depressed, etc, and you want to get it over with as quick as possible. But it's pretty much the long term feeling of guilt and knowing that taking the easy way out will cause me to regret it later on just pushes me to get things solved the right way the first time. That and knowing that it'll cause more problems down the road.