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May. 11th, 2006 08:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tsukikageYou know what I just realized?
Even if I'm kicked out of the U... I think I could still take classes as a non-degree-seeking student! I mean, sure, I'd have absolute the absolute last pick of classes, but it'd still be something. MCTC is still half the tuition of the U, so maybe I'd be better off taking classes there if I'm gonna be paying my own way, but it's good to realize that I have that option. Plus, I could always do a mix of MCTC and U of MN classes, which might help in not wasting the credits I take.
Patrick brought up that I might have trouble getting back into the U with my transcript in the shape it's in, so he thought I should just go for the A.A. and transfer, but I pointed out that the U would look at my U transcript as well as the MCTC one anyway, so I don't know how much it matters.
In any case, I need to verify all this. And get me full-time hours. ^_^;
Talking to Pat about all that's been on my mind lately - my crazy hormonal girl thoughts regarding us, my offense at being considered un-intellectual (I really think I'm more intellectual than he perceives; it's just that I'm poor at communicating my thoughts, so mostly they stay inside my own head, plus the fact that I'm not well versed at all in the areas he has the most interest in (politics, economics, history, etc.), so to some extent it's all the same to him) - seems to have been helping a lot. He doesn't want to offer much of his opinion on whether I should temporarily/indefinitely cut off contact with him, not wanting to influence my decision. But I'm thinking that I should just keep communicating with him about my feelings and concerns, even if I think they're selfish or obsessive, and so work out some of my deeper issues surrounding the breakup, and then just relax, go out for a chat over tea (depressing yet comfortably appropriate - I wish we had done that before he left for France) or a walk when he gets back, and learn to just relax a bit.
That's the thing... I think finally really letting out all of my psychological reactions to this to him is really letting me relax and take things in better stride. I hope. ^_^;
I hate that I've been feeling sick these past couple days. And it's a kind of constant yet weak queasiness that makes it both hard to concentrate and hard to tell what's causing it. Is it diet? The flu that's been going around? Stress? Lack of sleep?
It certainly doesn't help that KS95 was playing a commercial for a news story on Minnesota's plan to deal with bird flu should it come to Minnesota, killing as many as 300 a day. On the plus side, if I do die of bird flu, at least I won't have to angst about relationships/grades/ever getting my Ph.D. anymore.
Finally, even though![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sime316 hasn't gotten his work schedule yet... He requested time off to see X3 next Thursday night/Friday morning at midnight, so I'm going to be going with him and some of his friends. There's something uneasy about that for me (I saw the midnight showing X2 with Patrick and a bunch of people after junior prom two years ago), but I'm sure it's gonna be a blast!
Even if I'm kicked out of the U... I think I could still take classes as a non-degree-seeking student! I mean, sure, I'd have absolute the absolute last pick of classes, but it'd still be something. MCTC is still half the tuition of the U, so maybe I'd be better off taking classes there if I'm gonna be paying my own way, but it's good to realize that I have that option. Plus, I could always do a mix of MCTC and U of MN classes, which might help in not wasting the credits I take.
Patrick brought up that I might have trouble getting back into the U with my transcript in the shape it's in, so he thought I should just go for the A.A. and transfer, but I pointed out that the U would look at my U transcript as well as the MCTC one anyway, so I don't know how much it matters.
In any case, I need to verify all this. And get me full-time hours. ^_^;
Talking to Pat about all that's been on my mind lately - my crazy hormonal girl thoughts regarding us, my offense at being considered un-intellectual (I really think I'm more intellectual than he perceives; it's just that I'm poor at communicating my thoughts, so mostly they stay inside my own head, plus the fact that I'm not well versed at all in the areas he has the most interest in (politics, economics, history, etc.), so to some extent it's all the same to him) - seems to have been helping a lot. He doesn't want to offer much of his opinion on whether I should temporarily/indefinitely cut off contact with him, not wanting to influence my decision. But I'm thinking that I should just keep communicating with him about my feelings and concerns, even if I think they're selfish or obsessive, and so work out some of my deeper issues surrounding the breakup, and then just relax, go out for a chat over tea (depressing yet comfortably appropriate - I wish we had done that before he left for France) or a walk when he gets back, and learn to just relax a bit.
That's the thing... I think finally really letting out all of my psychological reactions to this to him is really letting me relax and take things in better stride. I hope. ^_^;
I hate that I've been feeling sick these past couple days. And it's a kind of constant yet weak queasiness that makes it both hard to concentrate and hard to tell what's causing it. Is it diet? The flu that's been going around? Stress? Lack of sleep?
It certainly doesn't help that KS95 was playing a commercial for a news story on Minnesota's plan to deal with bird flu should it come to Minnesota, killing as many as 300 a day. On the plus side, if I do die of bird flu, at least I won't have to angst about relationships/grades/ever getting my Ph.D. anymore.
Finally, even though
sime316 hasn't gotten his work schedule yet... He requested time off to see X3 next Thursday night/Friday morning at midnight, so I'm going to be going with him and some of his friends. There's something uneasy about that for me (I saw the midnight showing X2 with Patrick and a bunch of people after junior prom two years ago), but I'm sure it's gonna be a blast!