social update

Ooookay, overdue post is overdue. I'm a little distracted by a documentary on Israel Kamakawiwo'ole documentary Dianne rented from Netflix, so, it'll probably take me a long time to write, and I'll probably miss some things.

First... So, on Wednesday I decided to try to get in touch with the people jadeejf recommended to me, so I IMed kelglitter and we ended up going to a cupcake place in downtown Champaign called Cakes On Walnut. I got a green tea lemon cupcake in the biggest size they had left, along with a pint of 2% milk. Anyways, we sat and talked for around an hour and a half, and I had a good time. There was a bit of a small world (although not actually) moment, when I found out that her boyfriend's friend is the co-host of a music podcast I had just heard about and started listening to run by one of my co-workers at Best Buy. (I eventually stopped listening when I realized I don't know enough about the music to get into it.) In any case, I definitely wouldn't mind spending more time with her.

Then, last night as I was biking home I decided that since it was a Saturday night, I should go downtown and try to do something, maybe even meet someone. Since I suspected that if I went home first I would change my mind, I went straight downtown, rather than changing out of my work uniform and dropping off my backpack,, which in the end probably wasn't the best idea. In any case, arriving downtown I discovered that there was actually a street music festival going on with a band doing decent classic rock covers, so I parked and locked my bike, went into Cafe Kopi to get a croissant (cold croissant = greasy croissant :-/) and genmaicha on ice, and went out to listen to the music. Realized I wasn't able to actually interact with anyone, so I called Alana for adviice, and when she wasn't around I called my older cousin Andrea. Andrea told me to just try to find someone who looks nice and just ask them some question. I thought I could ask them about how they liked the music, or something...
After getting off the phone with her I went back and sat down, and someone started talking to me, which was exciting (I'm so lame...). I can't really remember what she asked me, but she did ask me if I didn't drink, and I told that no, I don't. Which eventually made me decide to go into one of the bars on the street (The Blind Pig Co..) and ask for their best starter drink. The bartender who helped me recommmended rum mixed with pineapple juice, cranberry juice, and some other juice(s?) I can't remember. While I was waiting for my drink (or was it waiting for a bartender to get to me) some creepy older probably sloshed guy started talking to me about how he was feeling depressed because his girlfriend just dumped him and how he hated his construction job, and at the end he told me I was very pretty. Story of my life. ><;

Anyways, granted I'm sure there was maybe a half serving of alcohol in what I had, but I figured as I don't drink at all that might at least disinhibit me a bit. But either by actual disinhibition, placebo disinhibition, or the fact that it was a cold night with me in a t-shirt having just drunk an iced drink... I was diinhibited just enough to... decide to screw pushing myself to be social and just go home. But at least the music and drinks (both the tea and the rum and juice) were good. Plus, I always feel better about myself when I'm actually dong something, rather than just sitting at home watching TV. (Even if I would have enjoyed sitting at home watching TV more...)

Well, I'm gonna keep ganbaru-ing. I think I might try to follow Alana's advice of trying to find some volunteer work, at least until I'm approved for resident tuition and can start taking classes. (I can take online classes at residential tuition rates now, but that won't help with the social aspect.)

[EDIT: Oh yeah, before I biked home I bothered a police offiicer to ask if it takes a while after drinking for the influence of alcohol to set in, in terms of safety for me to bike home. He asked me how much I had had, and when I told him only one drink but I had never drunk before, he seemed to be laughing inside, that I thought one drink would do anything. ^_^;;;]