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寂しくて、犬ちゃんに会いたくて
I really want to talk to my Inu-chan right now... Except he's not my Inu-chan anymore, and he's not online anyway. Stupid song making me feel all squickily natsukashii and afraid of dying to boot. (I have two types of fears of dying: the fear I've had since I was three of eternal unconsciousness, and a somewhat more recent fear of forgetting everything from life, although the latter isn't quite as much a fear as a deep sadness and not wanting it to be true. That song and series is one of the things I don't want to forget about.)
My multi-leveled loneliness isn't helping either. I want to spend time more time with my friends, I want to be back at RBC, I don't want to be alone for two weeks, I want to spend time with my mom and the rest of my family at her house, I want a boyfriend to spend time with, I want to be taking classes or at least working full-time (I suppose boredom and loneliness are similar feelings for me), and I want Patrick back...
I'm getting quite tired and I really would do well to be asleep right now, but I really don't want to go to bed.
Heh... I just realized something. I think part of the reason I don't like going to bed is because it's... Lonely.
My multi-leveled loneliness isn't helping either. I want to spend time more time with my friends, I want to be back at RBC, I don't want to be alone for two weeks, I want to spend time with my mom and the rest of my family at her house, I want a boyfriend to spend time with, I want to be taking classes or at least working full-time (I suppose boredom and loneliness are similar feelings for me), and I want Patrick back...
I'm getting quite tired and I really would do well to be asleep right now, but I really don't want to go to bed.
Heh... I just realized something. I think part of the reason I don't like going to bed is because it's... Lonely.