Apr. 22nd, 2011

tsukikage: (ヒカ碁 - Sai oh rly?)
If I had a choice between being over Mike IMMEDIATELY, or going back to Tuesday morning and changing my decisions entirely to have had that conversation in a more controlled manner this weekend... I'd probably choose the latter. I really hope after the storm passes and I'm in a new place that I don't still end up regretting what happened that afternoon. I just can't shake the feeling that I needlessly threw away something good, even if logic tells me that it was for the best. I really should take a hint from Mike's apparently indifferent attitude towards the break-up. だって、あいつは一度も「大好き」と言わなかったし、私の前で泣くこともしなかった。私はただ愛しい友達のような者であった。

君の側で眠らせて どんな場所でもいいよ」

God, you guys must be so sick of reading about this. I mean, in all truth it's just the same cliches on a broken record. Seriously, if one person says they want me to create a filter, I totally will. I just feel like this is a good place for me to vent and get some occasional reality checks from my friends who are crazy enough to put up with me.

I think as soon as I can come to the conclusion that I want to be over him, that I'm truly okay with us being over, it'll be a fast process from there. Or maybe truly wanting to be over someone and being over them are the same thing?

I think Sai's calling me on my bullshit.

ETA: 特にこの気持ちを彼に伝えたいけど、それは絶対しちゃいけないことだとよく分かる。「*抱く*」って書きたいけど、それも禁止...

ETA2: For better or worse, at least he's being supportive of my need to more-or-less cut off contact with him. I think Patrick sort of forced his dumper-heiki-ness on me, discouraging me from putting that distance between us for so long that he became sick of my inability to get over him. Although I really shouldn't be "putting words in his mouth".
tsukikage: (StC - Chihiro on balcony)
Good things so far today:
- 2 lbs. of mugicha and 1 lb. of Dragonwell arrived from TeaSource
- My mom apparently sent me the K'NEX I asked her to find as well as a $25 Visa gift certificate and some Japanese tea (after a bit of research I think it's a sencha).
- Will probably be replacing my queen (?)-sized bed with a twin-size loft bed/desk from IKEA at some point in the near-ish future - I'll have SO much more room in my room!!! Plus, I'd be able to keep my desktop in my room instead of two floors down. I'll have to figure out what exactly to do with my TV, though... Maybe I could only watch TV on my laptop when I'm in bed?
- Talked to my mom on the phone.
- Last two episodes of Madoka Magica came out and were awesome.

Bad things:
- I can't bring myself to delete my photos of Mike from my computer so I have them tucked away in the recesses of my file structure. But I still know exactly where they are and keep looking through them. Greeeat.
- Was looking forward to building K'NEX structures with Mike (we'd been trying to find a reasonably-priced AND reasonably-sized set for about a month now and had been failing), but now that's not going to happen any time soon, if ever.

Dunno why I'm posting this so early in the day - I've only been up for three hours. Whatevs, it's a lot of stuff for three hours. YAY MAKING AN LJ COMEBACK!! Oooh, wanna listen to "Reeewind! / I Like It" now. Shall do. ^_^

ETA: Lulz, I just realized one of the things I'm gonna miss is our little hand-slap thing. God forbid I initiate that with whatever next guy I'm with. Seriously, though, I got to the point where I'd hold out my hand for slaps to, like, my co-workers who would have no idea what I was doing.

ETA2: Is it odd that I took one sip of the Okame sencha and was like "Yup, that's Japanese green tea alright." Of course I have no way of knowing if I'd have picked up on that without already knowing.

IPA Bath

Apr. 22nd, 2011 08:24 pm
tsukikage: (SM - kanji skills)
Note to self: Wikipedia's IPA chart is NOT for linguists. Its description of [ɣ]? "Sounds rather like French [ʁ] or between [g] and [h]", plus an audio clip. Real helpful, guys.

Or, nevermind, looking under [ʁ] I get "Said back in the throat, but not trilled", which is better but not great.

On a totally different note, after being a tiny bit disappointed at completely losing the opportunity to get a ride to MN with Mike, I was thinking of leaving for MN on 5/27, having [livejournal.com profile] ellie_desu cover me on 5/30 and 5/31. Today Elizabeth mentioned that she and Parthiban were thinking of taking a road trip to Minneapolis on labor day weekend, i.e. 5/27-5/30, implying that I could catch a ride with them. Which... Would be awesome but impossible at the same time. Yay for logic fail.

ETA: Next time I'm in a relationship, I'm totally getting this.


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